Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Throwing in the Towel..

Well, I'm considering gong back to work.. Why? I'm no good at what I do here. simple enough!   All the kid training, house cleaning, cooking, teaching etc. Is not what I'm "trained" for, so I've reached my last straw and decided it's time to hang it all up.  I did believe that it was my God given duty to be here, caring for my family and raising Godly children, but obviously that's not his plan for me, or my kids, so I know when to quit fighting.  I'll do much better bringing in enough income to send the kids somewhere, and pay someone to clean the house.  

Big dreams of a farm and living sustainably destroyed, I know.. but what else is there to do? Some are cut out for it, and others.. are not. I'm one of the others..  Do I think it's best for my kids? At this point, I think it's better.  Not sure how the whole thing will play out, not sure of the details, but I'll keep things updated as I go along. Who knows, maybe now, I can actually keep this blog up to date?! ;-)